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Kuala Lumpur Week!

Will be competing at UADC in Kuala Lumpur for the rest of the month. The schedule is horrible, that you need to wake up at 6 to get everything down and they will be going to the venue at 7. They also said the venue is somewhat out of town it gets an hour or less to reach there by bus depending on the traffic. Its going to be an entire exhaustion here. But regardless of all, the show must go on.

What happened today?

I’m taking the test debate for the adjudication test. IT WAS SO SCARY!!!! I’m so under-confidence for that was so confusing and everyone can’t seemed to stop talking about it aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa T.T

But whatever it is, i must face whatever i got for tomorrow rounds and the rest of the tourney. Vera, Tania and Je (in speaker’s order) are debaitng, while me and prasetyo are judging. Just cross your fingers for us. Am not sure i can do it T.T

Guess what?

Just 3 days and i spent 250 ringgit already!! so crazy T_T

Difficult April, Worst May -_-

There’s so many things to do yet so LITTLE time. I don’t know how did i survived April and another month of May. Five damn days to UADC, i need to finish everything before my leave. But everyone seems seriously so hard to be contacted. Been so busy doing stuffs and take care of my own activities. Plus with my crazy thoughts applying all certain job and get accepted (_ _”)

I think i can’t stand for these 2 damn weeks without any help and rely on my own independency. If life is for living not for surviving then what should i do now? T_T

Kata mama jadi orang hatinya harus besar.But it is so hard to do that in reality while in this kind of situation you really hate certain kind of things. Those thought of you’re not being appreciated enough, when people have not reach the level of understandings according to your personal thought, and when all the blessings seem like a disaster for you. 

I don’t know what i have been doing lately, doing things without any right directions, my superior is unreachable and i’ll be away for another tourney in days. With the risk of suffering a very post-tourney depression syndrome. GEEZ help me. This would be my hardest time to pass them.